been too long

Life is insane. That I guess is the most simple way to put it. Health, well, I will get into that another day. I think I will talk about my kids today. Yesterday marked the day that it happened or I realized that it had happened. The kids have taken over. They now realize that they out number us 2 to 1 and can basically do what they want. Oh sure, we pretend we have control. But in reality, we may win battles but we are losing the war. They are just toying with us really. Letting us think we have any power. If you get this message please save me... :) Please just stay alive, some day that is my only goal.

Tonight we are taking the girls to the final Harry Potter. I will never forget sitting in the girl's room curled up listening to Brad read the first book. They were so little; I always wondered what they understood. Now, so many years later, they are not little anymore. Almost 13 and 10 years old they have been loyal fans. Reading every book; book 7 several times. Going to every movie the day it was released. I guess what I am saying as I could look at it 2 ways. This ends a "little girl" time in their lives, or that I still have 1 more night. I choose the latter. We thank you JK Rowling for this adventure and the bonding it caused. I personally started reading the later books after the 7th came out (no I went back and in order). I loved them. I will admit that I have listened to book seven 3-4 times on my ipod. I cry every time. I will cry tonight. Not just at the movie but at a change in life. I will find things to bond over still with the girls yes. I still have the boys to go through all this with yes. But, someone tell my heart that because tonight it breaks just a little bit.

My best wishes are too you all.